Change, the theme of '08 and '09

Something is happening. Not sure if it's what I want or not, but it's happening. And it may bring some big, big, big changes. If I do it ...

Oh motivation, where have you gone?

I've never been more unmotivated in my life. I didn't get the promotion that I, and many other co-workers, knew I deserved. In fact, I had a couple of co-workers who were absolutely shocked that we hired outside for this particular position. So in the past two weeks I've been so mad that I just don't know what to think. I was ready for the next step. I knew I could do this. I've done it before and wowed others around me that I could handle added responsibilities.

But now that I've basically been told that I'm good, but not good enough, I'm ready for the next chapter. Somehow, though, I need to get motivated. I need to act like I care. But I don't care. I'm no longer happy to just have a job. I know there are hundreds of thousands of people who are unemployed who would cringe at hearing me say that. My current position would probably generate 100 resumes in a week, easily. I've walked that line before.

Something has to happen soon. It has to. It's can be like this for 35 more years.